Living here in Virginia has been an eye opener for me. I mean I had friends and lost friends at Fort Benning. But if I thought that place had a lot of fake people, I was mistaken. I have made friends, lost friends, been used and abused since we moved here. More than I ever have in my life. Some of it was my fault. I wasn't exactly my true self until almost a year ago. But since then, I have become more positive, and in some cases more oblivious to how fake people can be. I'm starting to realize it. I just have to keep in mind that it's not me, it's them. Some people seem nice, but in reality all they care about it what you can do for them. They never return the favor. They only come to you to complain, never to talk about happy things. I used to be that girl. But I'm not anymore. I started slipping recently, but I caught myself. No more!
Yesterday I talked to my mom. She took my oldest daughter (when did she become a TEEN!?!) and her friend to a concert. While they were walking across the street, the girls started freaking out. Two of the band members were crossing in the opposite direction and said "hi" to them. I cracked up when she was telling me the story. I can imagine Sarah's face! And what a cool memory that she will have and be able to cherish forever. I miss her and her sisters more than they will ever know.
I also sat outside with my little girls for a bit before making dinner. Arrington refuses to wear shoes. When you ask her "Where's your shoes?" She says, "I don't need shoes! I don't WANT shoes!" So be it. No shoes for her. I came across Kassidy sitting in the grass in her Rapunzel dress playing with her hair and singing. So glad I had my camera!
In less than a month I get to go home. It has been almost a year, so I can't wait. I think part of my problem is that I miss my family and Georgia. Virginia claims to be the south, but nothing is the same to me as Georgia. It is home. The way my husband (and ALL Texans) feel about Texas, is the way I feel about The Peach State.
I know this is a rambling blog. But I have finally come to the conclusion that I have been working up to for a long time. Friends are nice. Family is better.I have an amazing Mom. And awesome Dad. A wise and beautiful Grandma who is my role model. All FIVE of my daughters are amazing miracles who get bigger every day. My husband is fantastic. He's not perfect and neither am I, but we make it work.
After being so busy with shooting, editing, and spending time with my husband and little girls in between, and not having much time for social media other than my photography, I realized that family matters. Family matters more than friends. More than BBQs. More than concerts. More than date nights. More than facebook. More than a social life. I am not in high school. When I get home and have family that I trust nearby, I will have date nights every now and then. But until then, I am happy with my husband and my girls.
Robert IS my best friend. For life. Til death do us part. Yeah, sometimes I want to strangle him. But I don't. And that's how you know he's my soul mate! HA HA! Kassidy is a handful and a half. But some times, she makes a good choice and I tell her how proud I am of her, and her face lights up and things are wonderful. Arrington is only 2. But her personality is incredible. She's the best "mini best friend" a mom can ask for. My older girls are miracles in their own right. If I start, I will never finish. But they are awesome. And a lot of it I can't take credit for. But they make me proud all the time.
I'm not trying to discount the true friendships I have here. I have a couple of friends who are pretty darn cool. One friendship is just beginning. Another has been around and stuck around even when I pushed her away. The other is country, sassy, honest (even when it makes me mad) and everything I like in a friend. Friends are good to have. But you really only need a few good ones! And family. You need family. Even when you think you don't. Hug them tight. You never know when it will be the last time.(A friend reminded me of this today.) Now, I'm going to turn off the computer, put my little ones down for a nap, enjoy the peace, and then hopefully play outside with them before the rain hits.
My dreamer.
Full of spunk!
My hero in more ways than one!
Can't wait to have an updated photo of them!
